Infinitely Small

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G o d

Me.

tipping point

"most people don't want to push themselves to failure. because then we don't look good. but then we don't get better. amateurs train to get it right, but professionals train until they get it wrong." - Chris Costa

gratefulness

"...you keep on concentrating on the things you wish you had and the things you wish you didn't have, and you sort of forget about the things that you do have... what I've seen in life are a few couple key principles, and the first thing is to be thankful." - Nick Vujicic

-And When I Find You-

I want to hold you in my arms,

call you just to hear your voice,

get lost in your eyes,

sit with you under the stars,

talk with you for hours,

keep your hand in mine,

plan out our future and what we'll do forever,

because, my dear,

I know I love you.

solace in knowing there's no one

so I can use this as a journal...

I hate my imperfections. I hate knowing that I could have done better. I hate knowing that I don't live up to the standards I place upon myself. I hate knowing that I can never live up to the standards of God. I hate that there's so much I could have done to make myself better-- yet I'm stuck having to live with the decisions and performances of my past. I want to go somewhere where it'll be hard to given my scores on tests, for example. But I need to trust in God. I need to. I need to do this before I fall upon myself.

#Give Me a Sign

I feel alone, earthside. I want to be good at things I haven't been at before.

But I need to be content... and know that God is sovereign.

I am silent.

and I watch the world spin by.

it is pulling, teasing, taunting, screeching

but I cannot be pulled in, I cannot.

those around me seek to move me,

but I cannot be pulled in, I cannot.

why do I stand? why must I fight?

I must seek holiness.

and in this, I am silent, invisible.

yet knowing there is one who never misses anything...

I am not alone.